Long Weekend – Day 5

By day 5, I’ve realized that with a plan to just “wing it” didn’t really work for me. I didn’t “wing” anything at all lol. I sort of just go with the flow. I had to send my sister to the airport on day 5 and then I went home… I didn’t even stop by anywhere to buy food, mainly because I’m on diet (yes, you read right) and I wanted to save money (yes again). But I ended up ordering some baked macaroni lasagna-ish for dinner smh but it was nice so I regret nothing!

Long Weekend – Day 4

Day 4 is the last day of the long weekend for most, but not for me. I extended it to the next Monday thus the 10 days. Naturally, everybody went back to their second home for work tomorrow. I couldn’t help but be reminded of this lecture I heard a while ago. I probably have shared it here some time ago.

Human is creature of habit. We find peace and comfort in routine but we will make changes, be it small or big to our daily routines due to certain events for example; vacation, wedding, death, etc. After all those events are done, we’re back to our routine. For me, it’s going to work at dawn, coffee, work, lunch, work some more, go back before sunset, rest cook, read, sleep, and we’re back at the beginning of the day. We spend the weekends doing things that we didn’t get to do during the weekdays, catching up. And before we know it, we’re in our 40’s with nothing to show.

Another thing is I think subconsciously, all of us believe that we gonna get old, retire, have all the free time in the world, and then concentrate on our ‘ibadah. Often we forgot that won’t necessary be the case. We might die before we even turn 40 or next year or next week. Tomorrow is never guaranteed for us.

I also believe that each of us want to change for betterment. We want to do something meaningful with our lives but this routine mundane life keep us in a vicious cycle that goes on and on and on. Sometimes, it’s hard to take a break from that cycle voluntarily without any events to focus on changing ourselves. Believe me, I’ve tried.

But if we could just make a little change to that daily routine and maintain it for 30 days or 60 days, it will evidently become a habit and the wonder it would bring..

Long Weekend – Day 2 & 3

Day 2

I really wanted to go out particularly on this day. Not sure why but I did so I and my sister went for a movie. There was nothing else good showing so we resorted to Along with the gods: The Last 49 Days. We didn’t even watch the first one haha. I kinda miss watching korean drama/movie so why not.

It wasn’t so bad. A bit comical and the handsome Ju Ji Hoon. He is so painfully beautiful to look at.

I would definitely now watch the first one.


Day 3

There’s a family lunch kinda with my sister’s groom-to-be but I didn’t go because I just don’t feel like socializing. It’s not a big deal kinda lunch because it’s just a getting to know each other kinda of lunch. I felt bad a bit for not going but I think it’s for the best. Urgh whatever.

And then we went to our tailor to give her the materials and take new measurement. I’m happy to announce that I have lost 1 inch of body measurement hahaha. Not much but for somebody who didn’t exercise at all, it’s something huge especially for me. The calorie counting worked! I knew it would but it worked on me!

We had pizza dinner at my brother’s and played some dance game at Nintendo Switch. I really like it!!! No need to go to the arcade and waste money haha. We have that drum set and 4 guitars for the Band Hero game. We got addicted to it for months but now….we grew out of it? Lol

Long Weekend – Day 1

I intended to start my long holiday with exercising in the morning, maybe a hike or a run but Allah swt knows best and arranged for me to meet my friend who’s sick in the hospital. We haven’t met since her wedding one year ago but we could jump into conversation as if we talk everyday. We probably have known each other for 18 years? Since form 1…wow that’s a long time.


I wanted to visit her so many times in the past but never really get my butt out of the house so I’m thankful that I get to do it this time. I actually got inspired by my mother who always always make it a point to visit anyone she know who’s sick. I remember there were times in the past when all she did is go to the hospital to visit sick people. Every single weekend.

In fact, visiting the sick is one of the Fardh Kifayah that is upon each Muslim.

And one of the adab/etiquette of visiting the sick is to recite this prayer for the person.

I hope I will make it a habit to visit sick people after this. And if anybody read this, please make a dua for her and other people that is in sickness.

The upcoming 10-days holiday!

I hate that the latest post on this blog is almost a year ago. Where did the time go!? Where!?

Well I’m excited for my long holiday next week. Just 5 more days and I will have 10 days holiday! …Not that I have anything planned though. I used up all my resources for travel this year so I kinda can’t afford any more travelling, be it near or far. But I’m still excited. The last time I had this kind of holiday without travelling was when I switched job and I knew I would need to wait for another job switch to get it again, which I don’t think will be happening anytime soon.

I wonder if I should plan out my activities hmm. I was thinking to just read the whole day, everyday haha. Can you imagine? 10 books in 10 days! Woot woot! Okay the double woot is sooooo last year. So lit! Hahaha.

Terminate Astro – Succeed!

I’m in charge of few bills of my mother’s house. One of them is Astro bill and I kinda had it with Astro. It’s true what other people said about this broadcasting company; they keep repeating the same thing over and over again. And there used to be very minimal to no advertisement but now, it’s all advertisement in between and it’s getting more expensive. I remember the bill used to be less than RM150 and then suddenly it reached RM170++ and I don’t even wanna know why. Actually I couldn’t even be bothered.

On average, I watch more TV than the whole household and I’m not even a permanent resident! Just a weekend visitor. Okay it’s only because I stay home a lot compared to others LOL. So I decided to stop subscribing to the cable TV. Everybody sorts of agreed but then again, I paid the bills haha. And we have the free and ever sufficient HyppTV so why waste any more money?

I put in quite an effort to unsubscribe because I’ve read lots of experiences  saying that it ain’t gonna be easy. They won’t let you go just like that. They will procrastinate, delay, ignore you, and all sort of stuff. Some people had to keep paying them for years after the end of subscription God knows why. After all the research, this is what I did and it worked without any hassle alhamdulillah.

  1. Check and pay off your outstanding bill – My bill cutoff date is every 28th so I checked my outstanding bill online and paid them off 1 week before 28th that month which is around 21st. You need to give them some time to unsubscribe for their internal procedure. Few days suffice but sometimes they will say they need a week and you have to wait another month due to “lack of time”.
  2. Call the next day to unsubscribe – Get your account number and your cutoff date ready. Don’t be discourage by the automated call answering system. I spent almost half an hour to finish the whole process being the first 20 minutes just to get to the right department.
  3. The conversation – Ask for your cutoff date just to be sure and so they can’t twist something along the way. Say politely that you want to stop subscribing and they will ask why and all. I simply told them that nobody watches the TV anymore. I think they get that a lot because the guy on the phone was so understanding. He will make you an offer that you definitely can refuse. Don’t give in to that. Have perseverance! You can do this! –They will cut the Astro right before your cutoff date so just make sure you have the cutoff date right and double confirm with them. In my case, my Astro was terminated exactly at 27th 12.00AM. You can insist for them to cut it off right away but they will persuade you to wait until the very end I don’t know why.
  4. Contractor appointment – Astro’s contractor will call you to collect the huge dish and the decoder. Set an appointment as soon as you can. Don’t delay. In my case, the contractor collects them on the 28th itself or was it the next day hmm I can’t recall but it was around 28th. They didn’t give any acknowledgement paper or anything and my family didn’t take any picture etc. so maybe you wanna do that just in case.
  5. You are free! Congratulations!

I’m so grateful that it was not a pain process for me. Others had it worst. I hope it will be in you favor too.

Funny thing is we couldn’t find the HyppTV decoder hahaha. So, we’re TV-less for few weeks and my brother can’t wait anymore and bought Android TV and our life changes afterwards LOL. It’s not as user friendly as other decoders. My mother still can’t figure out how to use it and it took me near 15 minutes every time I wanna watch something. It’s different but very promising. And cheap too! Few hundreds per lifetime. I don’t know why we didn’t think of this sooner.



All at the same time

Sometimes, I wanna do all sort of things at the same time and I feel all sort of things at the same time. I wanna read books, study my Arabic, write for my blog, exercise, do something creative, all at the same time. And few moments later I feel anxious, nervous, excited, overwhelmed, ecstatic, exhilarated, all at the same time.

But most of the days, I don’t wanna do anything, really.


The other day when Sometime launched personalize items, I was thrilled! I love anything personalized just because. You can have 10 characters of your name monochromed on the bag and they don’t have just bags this time. They have wristlet, key chain, satchel bag, etc. and the colors are pretty too!

So I and my sister decided to go to the launch on 2nd day (thank God cos there’s literally no other customer compared to the 1st day). I have been looking for a lunch clutch/wristlet for the longest time. I have one I’ve been using but there’s no handle. I have to hold by its body which most of the time I stuck it at my armpit lol. Sometime have one and it’s prettayyyyyy.

Come the day, I was filling up the form to pre-order and it took me a long time to decide what name to be on the wristlet. I have always used “ila anne” as my pseudonym online because I want to be as invisible as I can online. Somehow I don’t like to link my private life to my online life? That does not make any sense given that there’s my picture and all the updates but idk. Another thing is……..

I don’t like my real name. There, I said it.

It’s horrible. I know. I feel guilty whenever I think about it like I should be grateful because it’s a gift from my parents and all that stuff right. And I thought I would grew out of this ‘phase’ but I still don’t like it. You know that phase when you’re teenagers and you wanna be somebody else so you have different name or spell your name differently just to be different and not yourself. It’s not like that with me now. I’m perfectly fine with who I am. I just don’t like my name. It’s not that I wish for other fancy or unique name. I just don’t like it.

And it would look really stupid if I put “ila anne” on the wristlet when I’ll be using it in my real life, not online life. I sort of wanna use “Anne Fadzil” which makes a lot more sense but I don’t even use that name. And Anne isn’t my real name at all. It’s just the first letter of my real name. If I just put “Anne”, it won’t be as personalized anymore. It would look like an ordinary wristlet with a brand called “Anne” LOL. So, there I was in the store analyzing situations for quite sometime. In the end, I chose to put my real name.

I regretted it right after. Still do.